my teenage life

2011-10-09T12:43:00.002+08:00

;Tell me you Love me,Whisper it to me baby.

Its been a Long time . Whoa .

Life has been great I Guess .
What more can i ask for ? People around me has been wonderful :)
well, School has been awesome . and that im one attachment now .
1week down , i have 9more weeks to go .
Yes 9more weeks and i'll be graduating soon :)
Yes , A nurse is my career .
and i'll strive till im happy with myself ,
hard work is all i ever did to be in this career line and i aint giving up . :
Imma meet thee best later on for lunch :D
woohotts :)
and yes , To top up my life .
I own the most BoncetBf ever , and his the best :)
i'll never replace him anyone else :)
Ok shall get going now , actually im lazy to blog .
but yeah , i just did.

Ps; I miss my supergirls and my sec sch friends :(
Okay Bye

into u LOL.

2011-07-05T00:20:00.002+08:00

This Is Life is Guess.

No one will always get what they want in life .

some even have to sacrifice somethings to get another.

And the best part is,

No Everyone can please us in this life and we ain't living in this world to have a main goal of pleasing everyone .

not everyone is to be pleased , Its life .

I Have been away from Blogger now.

Here i am , Plugging in my earpiece listening to the music - How to love.

Life has been totally Boring , its like normal right now .

sometimes i just feel Like ignoring people , get a piece of mind .

Relax everything right now .

Everything seems so wrong right now .
i feel like im going to disappoint some one special . i don't know .
I guess , Thats just me right .
Okay well , sometimes its us people making our own life very very complicated right .
This & That . heartbreaks and disappointment and all those shitx .
haaaa .
Well, I have been enjoying holidays now . rotting my ass and staying home and just working part time.
damn , i never enjoyed holidays .
SHITX .
talking about working , im working later on .
GOSH , I swear its gonna be a tiring day .
i swear im tired but im gonna update this blog before i knock off to bed right .

well , For the past few days , There's this sumone . who has been having problems with his sumone .
sumhow , im tired of entertaining u dude .
i guess entertaining u will hurt my bf right .
so i shall stop,
for now , U go with ur life and i'll enjoy mine with my bf ,
Im sorry for what happened between u & Her .
Maybe its not the right girl , but dude . dont give up .
There's alot more fishes in the pond .
i guess , u just have to wait for the right one to come to you and not u finding the right one right ?
HAAA , GODD LUCK BRAAAAHHH .

Me And Boyfiriend have been aweosmely fine .
Hee , Well I Love him more & more each day now .
Even though we fight alot , still ntg can get in between us ,
i mean like , KACAU DAUN uh.
Pls ehy , he may have make a past mistake but i know he wont ever do it again .
its may have hurt me but pls , that was long gone .
Right now, Its just me and him in this love life :)
Haa , Okay okay . talking about my bf .
Well , updates about him is just that his getting fatter now :)
his pipi mcm 10pounds siak each .
ok Lol .
now now , his asleep right now . sad or what .
I should be sleeping too . awww , my bed calling for me already .
But wait i got lotsa more to update .
Bhybhyboy , Im always into you .
everyday i fall in love with you over & over again .
that never ends . There will never be a fullstop in my love you :)

okay right now , Im very very sleepy .
i admit .
I guess i'll stop here and update more soon :)
thanks for reading this kind of pointless post of mine .
Heh , Sumpah nie post tk important .
HAHAHA .
okay dah shhh .
Goddnight and wetdreams everyone .
Lickys . _|_ !
xoxo bicthes .

A lil bit of this and that.

2011-05-19T20:08:00.003+08:00

"Its Not about how u look or how much many u own, Its How U treat people that counts. "

Yes , Its been too Long since i last updated this blog of mine yea .

I know I know , Life has been a lil Ups & Downs with Boyfriend .

now that im on attachment , Its more tiring . I swear .

Ouh well , I just cant help it . My eyes are asking for forgiveness already .

Ok anyway , Im half way through my attachment anw .

4 more weeks to go and im done , yeaheh .

ouh well ,

Im more active at my tumblr sumhow .

Ouh well .

Okay , I will update this blog of mine during my holidays ?

a Lum Sum of it okay , i promise .

Okay ,

well , now my dearest bhybhyboybacen is at SSDC doing his prac .

Good luck aye bhybhy .

Im waiting for ur msg ,

i wish time flies fast , ergh . i miss you already right now .

seriously .

Okay okay .

gtg :D

WTHELL.

2011-02-27T16:09:00.003+08:00

Thee Boy who keeps me strong at the weakest end.
I love him to thee very muche, i swear.

he never leave me even at my shittess attitude.

Thee best , no matter what :)

and well , im waiting for him to end work .

i miss him to thee core already .

well , my blog is dead , i admit . but i will still update it no matter what .

currently active in tumblr but now tumblr sot ...

so yeah , blogging and posting .

and well , dont worry life has been wonderful , i guess so .

me & boyfriend have been fine & good .

well , my exams will be in a weeks time , im studying later .

studying my PCA , ouh well .

tomorrow is already Monday , what a life . gosh .

from tomorrow onwards , imma stay awake and concentrate , Like seriously .

HAH HAH :D

i aint gonna sleep in class anymore .

Ouh gosh .

okay dahh (:

i miss my babyboy already .

bhy please finish work cpat cpat .
Imysm .
okay im done updating , nk watch tv now .
Goodbye :)

Randomly post.

2011-01-23T15:15:00.004+08:00

I want to go get a relax of mind.

ohh , I want a sexy body .

I wanna own millions of money , but i wanna work for it to .

I miss my girls .

FCUKYEAHLIFE.com
and yes , TAKE NOTE ;
Im having flu & pain in throat .
SHUTX .
OHMYLIFE.com
I wish the sneezing will stop , bahhhh !
Okay done, bye (:
i can see it now , im sick yeah !
_|_

just the way u are

2011-01-23T12:41:00.005+08:00

Wake Up Call .

Today is already Sunday, Whoa how fast my weekend have past .
and i did nothing at all .
well , i did go to work yesterday which was super tired .
I had a great time at work with my workmates .

well , On friday i end sch at 1130am .
and went off to celebrate SHARK'S 18th birthday .
pictures will be uploaded soon (:
then aft that went seperate ways with the rest .
I went to meet bhy , then out from sch .
well , we went to take my stuff from My home to bring to Grandmum's home.
then get ready and went to GV YISHUN , Ouh well .
we watch burlesque.
which was THUMBS UP , Like two thumbs up :)
It was not regret watching.com
Bhy even enjoyed the movie . HAHAH , Kan bhybhyboy ?
well , after that movie . walked around northpoint and had a great talkout with bhy.
I miss doing that with you bhy .
then bhy sent me home and he headed home too :)
and yesterday , fee gave me a call .
telling me if i wanna meet her at won .
krg mcm CB , dah lmbt aru ajak .
love krg ehy , but nah . i just ended work i was super tired .
next time aye girls ? Love love love ya girls (:

well , today is just my resting day .
im waiting for bhy to finish work .
Ouh well , i miss him lotsssa :)
okay okay , i have not bath yet . i swear .
HAHAHA :)
Okay okay , Im busok !

Okay well , school has been full of this & that .
Projects & stuffs . mcm CB .
and and , im hanging on strong .
cos i know i can do it , look at the positive side , i have 11more months to go till graduation night .
and 11months is nothing , time will past fast .
and i know i can handle any shit that is coming in my way .
seriously .
ouh well , im the best .
and with my BOYFRIEND & BESTFREINDS & FAMILY & GIRLFRIENDS & FRIENDS by my side , i knw i can.
well , Life is the way u lead it too :)
And im going to stay strong no matter what .

yes , i miss alot of my friends .
but hey , i bet the understand .
after my 2011 has ended , and im not this busy anymore .
i'll make sure i meet up with everyone i miss .
Yes , i will :)
for now , im prettay busy with school , test , exams , thinking about attachment .
many more .
oh why oh why , i ask myself .
HAHAHA :)
okay shall end this post here , im SUPER HUNGRY .
OKAY BYE :)
if im not that late ; have a great sunday everyone .
lets count down to the next TGIF :)

I was Thinking about me, Thinking about you, Thinking about us.

okay okay .
syazwaNabilah ; 110909 .
Ohhh bhy , i miss you luh bhy !
okay everything with bhy is okay now .
i guess , we both know that fighting about small stuff is just ruining our relationship .
so yeah (:
well ,
I Love him more and more each day .
I swear , I swear .
Hahah ,
okay okay ,
no one can replace him in my Love Life , that is a YES!
haha :)
okay okay ,
I love him too much :)

and bhy , I nak u soranggg jeeks :)
Im offf , GoodBye !

lame it.

2010-12-27T00:42:00.003+08:00

Here You Are Down On Your Knees Again,

Trying to find Urself to Breath Again .
you're so close to me i nearly die .

Okay Im Supposed to be Asleep By Now .

I mean Like seriously , I feel Like Im Afraid what for is coming .

So well , Im Tired But i Just wanna update .

I dont know why .

Okay Okay .

Im So So So Tirreeeeeddddd :'(

Okay , I guess i should go to bed now .

NOTE: 2011, please be a good year . Please :)
i wish all Lucks & stay healthy for next year and the years to come :)
Love love .

Noone has the rights to tell u to do something , Its you & only you :)
And yes , I Love my Boyfriend :)
Even at his worse , To me its the best :)
okay dah .
1year3months , 5years9months to go :)

in my air

2010-12-24T19:55:00.006+08:00

We Just Hope for a Happy Ending .
The fights, The Arguments We had Makes our Love Stronger.

I Thank Allah For giving you, My Love.

For the Rest Of My Life,

Our Love Is Like A Story , It's Continuous and never ending .

But Im Hoping for a Happy Ending . Like those in the Fairytales.

Its Like , For you I will . I promise.

Life has Been wondefully Blessed .

Okay I shall update My Blog right now , Haaa .

Okay well , where should i start ?

Well ,
Its my Holidays now , I have tons of plans . Tons of things to buy for next year .
Tons of birthday gifts that i owe , OH WOW .
Guess what ?
well , i dont know how to put to words . But life has been amazing .
Soon , It will be more amazing with plans coming up .
Well ,
2010 is ending soon and 2011 is coming .
I hope 2011 will be a blessed year for me , but for sure . studies will stress up my head yow.
Anyways , I enjoyed my ferst four days of holidays in Genting Highlands . There , it was Amazing yow .
The weather , The rides , The fun & laughters , The Food ( .___. ) , Hahaha :)
I swear it was an unforgettable trip with my family , They're the best !
And , I took the fun rides and let all my sorrows out . Its like the best trip to end 2010 .
Well , 2011 will be another year in Nursing . all over again .
I swear Its going to bes stress , to come to think about it .
After My ITE Nursing Studies , im goign to graduate as an Enrolled Nurse and work straight .
then while working , i'll study too . Well planned huh , i know .
i got to plan cos i dont my future to be tangled like wires .
I even prepared my stuffs for 2011 :)
Oh well , 2010 have been a Blast year for me . Great i shall say :)

Well ,
Everyone wants a happy ending right , so do i .
but u have to earn it to have it , right .
well , things between my & love has been chaotic . Like seriously .
Well , we had fights after fights still we love each other .
his words can really make me cry sometimes , but i know deep down his heart he dont mean a single thing he said to me .
So now , everything has been perfectly fine .
I need to col him later at 22oohours .
well , he can be egoistic sometimes But seriously , Im Nothing without him .
his like my life and all , Like Everything .
I swear I Love him no matter what happens .
Even If he Changed ten thousand times , I'll endure anything his giving me .
Cos , i'll regret it if i let him go .

To bhy ,

U may not know this , But

sometimes i do think of letting you go .

But i think ten thousand times about it .

But now , i wont cos now i know that deep in my heart i'll regret if i let yor go .

And bhy , we may always fight . there are times i just wanna smack ur face and tell you that ur the one at fault , jus admit it lah .

Bt now , i learn not to fight back .

Cos , I'll let you win ur point cos to me , there's no point fighting with the one u love so much .

And i'll regret it if at the end of the fight , u'll let me go .

U may not know how i cried when u're just damn mad and wont forgive me ,

i cried my tears out , i cried my soul out .

I gave u ten thousand chances , Thats why i just want you to know that i have no other guys except you.

If i have one , i wont wait 1year3months , i wont be here with u right now .

I wont bother calling u late night to seek for ur forgiveness .

I hope u know what u mean to me ,

U mean the world to me . U're the light that shine brighter than the sun in my life.

u're like the my star, shinning up there so bright .

sometimes i feel like goddamn u're over protecting me , but nah.

u're just worried bout me , where i am . my safety .

Bhy , u're sweet like zhe sugar .

I swear , I love yor so much okay babyboy .

okay okay , meeting you tomorrow at work .

YEAH !

LALALA ,
Well , all i can say is that i cant wait for 2011 to come .
And yes , Blessful life im having :)
Okay im off to bed .
shall update a proper one soon okay .
Im damn tired , im working tomorrow and im not asleep yet .
whoa , great :)

Receive only what u've given.

2010-12-01T19:30:00.002+08:00

Life is what u make it to be.

Each of us live a different life.

some can be hard while others can be easy.
Some can laugh throughout their life, while others can continuously cry.

This girl I miss alot .

i've been pretty busy lately.

so i'll edit this post when im free later on :)

XOXO

2010-11-05T22:48:00.003+08:00

'Say My Name , Say My Name . When Noone is Around you.'

When I Feel Like Crying , I tell Myself that "Don't waste ur tears."

When I feel so Lost , I smile and tell myself that "u can go through this ."

When I feel So weak , I tell myself that " Ur'e strong babygerl , Yes you are."

When I feel so Angry , I tell Myself That "Dont go too hard on urself "

Now , I motivate myself to live life to the fullest , Not to waste any time ,

cos Time dont wait for us , 1 minute pass so fast that if u dont treasure or make a mistake on that 1 minute , u'll regret it .

Trust me , Every problems has their way out .

Hard or easy , Its depends on how u handle it . *winks*

Hello My Dear Readers, WATZUPP ?

Okay I Have not been updating this few days , I mean months ? or no, weeks ?

I dont know . Hahah :)

ouh well , Simply because i was damn damn damn lazy to update .
and that , i've been busy with attachment .
ouh well , what can i say . i'll update only when im free ? yeah .
anywhattsss , Life has been full of attachment .
This & That , well . Life has been Blessed .
Great i can say . But what life without bits& pieces of problems right ?
HAhaha :)
Well , The only thing now is that im super tired .
sleepy .
well, normal routine . when it comes to attachment days . Sleeping = NOT ENOUGH .
Hahahaha :)
Anyways , this is not gonna be a long post okays ?
A short one will do .

and and , For the past few weeks .

I have alot of My hearts & souls celebrating theirDay .

SO to all of dhem ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE & BELATED :)

Ouh well ,

Okay then .

Back on track .

Me & Bhy ;

we're okay . everythings going back to normal now .

today is the 5november .

6more days to our 1year2montsh annivesary :)

Ouh gosh bhy , Sayang youuuu luh fat pig :)

XOXO.

Muahahahhahahahah :)

Anyways ,

Me & bhy Buying Iphone3g end of this year :)

Well , decided to get that phone at last :)

Hahahah :)

i know i know , like everyone is using it .

But who cares , I like it :)

so bhy & i , We're saving up now .

and bhy , I Love you so much that no one can ever replace you in my heart .

like seriously , no one .

You're the best i ever had , and i'm certain that . there ain't nothing better . there ain't nothing better than you :)

Syang Bhy so much .

syazwaNabilah ; 110909 .

it will never fade away from my heart , i promise .

XOXO

Muhahahah , familiar ?

okay okay , not much talk okay . Im off to bed now .

eyes are shutting soon :)

goodbye .

damns

2010-10-06T02:29:00.004+08:00

Well,I love my life way too much.

God has given me the strength go through every single bits of test for the past 17years.

Im glad , I Live in this world .

But It wasn't easy journey .

I face shits everywhere , But that does not break me into pieces .

well , now .
since i woke up , to those who dislike me .
DAMN PEOPLE , WAKE UP .
I dont live in this world to please you , so please .

"That,Im His Beautiful Monster."

My life is getting better now .

im going for attachment in 5days time .

for sure ,

I'll miss my DICK BF & My ARSES GERLS & SUPERGERLS & ALLLL BESTFRIENDS & ZAKIYYAH :)

Okay , attachment will be ending on the 17 december .

pay will come in ard 400$.

then on the 18december onwards , i'll be working on monday , wednesday,thursday &saturdays.

and and , i'll get my mac bonus end of the year .

so next year the year of 2011 , Im getting this stuff below ;

- Sony Ericsson Xperia white color .

- Ipod touch

- New pair of shoes & slippers.

- New pants & top .

- New Bikini & lets go to sentosa :)

FCUK , i so cant wait to got shopping with bhy end of the year .

bhy is buying the phone too , *menyebok*

fcuk you luh baby dick :)

syug ko luh dick .

okay im off to bed . yes this is a random post :)

got BL meeting later on from 9am till 4pm :)

and now is 3am in the morning .

i guess i'll get going now :)

and my dick promise not to be hot-tempered and self-centered anymore .

FCUK YEAH YOU SHOULD CHANGE BHY , COS I FLOVE YO .

Okay i must so go

2010-09-30T00:00:00.002+08:00

Right Now, U're my only wish.
We used to talk real late after midnights,

Now the only thing we do on the phone is fight .

U used to make me laugh , Now all ur words are hurting me .

Cos baby can't you see , I'm still loving you .

and will always do.

'You're the Sun That Makes me Shine'.
Like Hello There .
Its been along time yeah since i last Updated . Things / Life have been a havoc this few days .
Im Currently having my holidays , And i so cant wait till i go for attachment , $$ .
Ouh well , Its currently 1:20am in the morning of Thursday .
Yes , Im supposed to be asleep but im just not sleepy . So how ? I also dont know .
Okay since im superb not sleepy , Let me post about my life okay go ? Yes go :)

MY LIFE & MY FRIENDS ;
Well , Life has been so stress out , i dont know why .
but maybe , thats just my feeling right ? in other words , Me feeling feeling stress jek .
LOL , But well , I have been spending way ttooooooooo Much ,
That i just realized , I SHOULD REALLY STOP !
STOP SPENDING ! STOP TAKING OUT MONEY .
AND START COLLECTING AND WORK MORE !
yes , this is what i want to do , starting form today onwards .
cos seriously , I want to be better .
so here i am , saying that im gonna stop being spendthrift .
Cos seriously , I want a good future as a nurse (:
so money plays an important part for my future . Really .
okay im talking serious (:
BUT , at the same time i did enjoyed my life for the past few days , Ouh well .
I'm actually lazy to elaborate , But I cant enjoy in the next 3months .
cos attachment is arriving . oh well , Pray hard i survive it hah .
Well , I dont care babe .. I just cant wait for it .
*winks*

I've been missing my friends now lately .
i will sit down quietly , think about all the fun times i had with them and laugh to myself .
i wish i had that now , well they;re bz with their o levels , studying , working .
well , will meet up soon okay ?
party till late night like we're not living tmr .
it does not matter about how long we never meet , its about the thoughts that counts .
one day , we'll meet up and drink our life till tmr comes .
watch the sunrise till the sunsets .
watch movies & pizzas .
make fun & criticize each other and laugh out loud like no one is around .
girls , i miss yo'll .
i cant wait to hang out .
as long as im not a stranger to yo'll im alright .
Okay bhybhygals ?
i may not be able to meet yo'll but my heart will never forget yo'll .
Muacks muacks .
Sayang my girls too much .

MY FAMILY ;
Well , family has always been there .
Never fail to be there when i need them .
And to Uncle Peh ; HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST PAKCIK (:
And and to kak Hida Isis And Aqilah and Arina ; HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to You'll (:

Love you all smuer .

Muacks muack .
Okay so , My family life has been wonderfully great for the past few months .
Well , Im glad i have them as my family :)
ouh well , Thanks to my family , I love my life .
Thank you my dearest family .

MY LOVE ;
Ouh well , noone said love was easy thang to go through .
But shit yo , i love muhd syazwan forever .
Oh well , what the fcuk bhy , im not asleep , and if you're reading this post , you're so getting mad .
Oh well , syg ko luh jubs !
well , My fat pig was sick since the day we went to universal studios , but still he never fail to make me smile.
And still, he is sick .
headache , throat pain .
*praying he get well soon*
oh well , he's abit well now .
what to do , he super strong mahh .
yes , we did fight for a couple of times when he was sick ,
perangai dier mcm self-pk jek .
he will not care luh gituu , but still he did say he's sorries .
Oh well , bhybhy nga sakit i forgyve .
hahah :)
boy , u're one in a million .
best i ever had :)
okay well , whatever it is i will never let what we're having now go .
who will ?
1year of REAL-lationship . whoa , u're amazing baby :)
I love you so much that i never get sick and tired of you sweetheart :)
remember , 110909 and syazwaNabilah will be in my HATI forever .
love yo , My MAN .
Muacks .

okay im off to bed now .
later meet bhy and help him dye rambot dhier , sebok .
i nk join jugak .
okay golek , goodnytes all .
Muacks .

Never fail.

2010-09-17T08:22:00.004+08:00

My Heart Breaks Each time We Fight,

But the pain will never fail to go away .

My Tears roll down every time u shout ,

But They will never fail to Dry up .

On top of every mistake u do ,
I Never fail to forgive you .
on Top every Fight u start ,
I never fail to accept ur apology even before u say it .
What Hurts the most ,
U never fail to repeat the same mistake over & over again .
What hurts the most ,
U dont own the guts to say sorry before i tegor u .
But if this a Change of you ,
I will Endure everything even if it means doing it alone , I will .
Cos I love you .

But do you know how much ? U cant even read my heart .

" WHAT IS LOVE ? I ASK MYSELF ."

Yes im sad now , Like very sad . That it didn't take me a sec to cry my tears out .

I wonder again , Do u even know what a promise is ? do you ?

maybe the phrase,

" Dont make a decison when you're sad , dont make a promise when u're happy"

is way true enough .

I didn't expect those words to come out from your mouth , seriously .

i bet you dont know how i feel right ?

You dont bother , if u bother . you wont even will say those words .

yes , i cried . i cried real hard .

and so suddenly , This question came out ,

"who the hell am i to you ?"

Yes , sometimes u over protect me . but i know its for the best of this relationship .

but if protecting me is about saying all those nasty words to me ,
Then i rather u not protect me anymore .

Im sorry im saying this but i cant take it any longer ,

if this is u changing to a better you , then i'll endure it even if it means alone .

But if this is you changing into a monster , then i rather u leave me than hurting me any more .

there are days now and then , i pretend im okay .

DO u even think about how much hurt u have given me for the past 1year ?

is it not enough ? im sorry i have to post this at my blog , cos i just could not tell you ,

cos i bet you cant accept what im trying to tell you ,

so im here , to tell you . Im at the edge of giving up .

u once told me , u're enduring the pain too .

but what pain are you enduring , when the pain is you giving it to me .
remember when u lied , if i were to follow my move . i wont even look at you anymore .
but my heart , its telling me to give you another chance .
cos it loves you , and i did .
remember when you ask for a timeout , i cried my night out .thinking why ?
but i gave u another chance .
remember when u got a new job and u neglect me for couple of days ,
i tell myself ,
" maybe his tired , give him time to sort things out "
but u never realized it , who am i then ?
Now Now , i should stop crying while typing this post .
cos i know im strong .
just now , i only wanted a "sorry" Through the phone ,
but i get other words instead .
once a period , you told me to shut up every time we fight .
then at that point of time , my mouth really didn't want to talk to you .
my mouth feel like closing and shutting up .
but lucky you , i forget all your mistake so quickly .
but when you break ur pms just now ,
i think do u even deserve to be forgive ?
yet , i did . without you knowing i forgive you already .
cos why i forgive you ? cos i love you .
maybe all this is part of love ? i dont really know .

Yes , i do say vulgar at you . But i did it with No " KAU" or "YOU" at the back .
yet , i still say sorry .
cos i know i hurt u alot .
yes i do change , but i still remember you when i changed .
Yes , i break my pms . but i dont break it more than two times .
every time my heart breaks , every time .
not once or twice , but every time .
But it will never fail to heal by just looking at ur smile .
but do u know ? u dont know right ? haix .
where do i stand again ?

but on top of everything ,
my cherry of the ice cream will always be you .
no one else can take that spot away from you .
But now , im just not strong enough to go through another fight with you .
U're the best , and i'll never leave you for another .
that i swear upon my life.
even how hard u break me , i can never leave you sad .
cos u're my everything , and nothing really matters when you're with me .
please forgive me for my worngs cos i long forgive you for ur worngs .
text me up kay bhy ?
cos i miss the old you .
the one who never revenge in anything , the one who owns up his mistakes even though its not his .
i just miss the old syazwan .
please come back :)
u know ,
syazwaNabilah & 110909 will never fail to get into my head .
that is why i never fail to forgive you over & over again :)
Love you bhy , muaccckssss !
Dont put a fullstop for ur love towards me kay bhy ?
cos u're my one & only superhero sayang (:
and i miss you bacen-ness already , how ?
as far as i know , you're the sweetest .
and u never give up to make me smile again . you best uh bhy (:

updated now .

2010-09-15T18:50:00.010+08:00

If god gave me a wish , I wish that i was still young .

where i was all by myself , Pampered by my parents .

But i too thank god , For giving me a life to live .

living is once , But in this once .

we make a lot of sins , a lot of people mad .

we just don't know the true meaning of life , like god does .

We make a lot of mistakes , Human nature .

Admitting myself , i too make a lot of mistakes for my past 17years of living .

well making mistakes is not a bad thing , instead it helps us improve our life in the future .

this few days , there's accident here & there .

i guess Allah really wants us to repent .
And when will i do that ? i think myself .

What Is life now ? Im asking myself that as well.

Okay , I have not been updating this few days . since raya started .

Ouh well , was too happy collecting $$ till i forgot .

Okay , im sorry for not updating .

My days for the past few weeks was SUPERB OKAY :)

Life , has been averagely fine . Nothing seems like OH SO UNCONTROLLABLE .

Haha .

as u can see , for the past few post , my wordings has been in black color . i just dont know why .

but theres something wrong with my blogger . when i save it as colored post , it will not turn out to be colored . That makes me super frustrated. Hahah (:

im so going to edit the previous post now . hahah (:

Ouh yarh , my life has been fine now .

and to all NURSES in ITE ; HAPPY HOLIDAYS (:

and and , I Love all my friends . my best awesomeness girls (:

Murni , Thanks for being there for me from the 1 month till now .

lets pray hard we get the same shift yeah :)

and and yanie , shark , fatin , Girlfriend(zhi qing) , Alifah , Byzura , wageeza and all the people i know ; U guys Rocksss :) Loved Loved alot alot .

and and , i miss feeeqah , iqa , Murnie (get well soon okay bhybhygal ?) , zakiyyah , mary jane and and TEERA RAHAYU, hanis, ayesha and many many moreee . :)

Okay gals , I miss you people (:

Well, Im done with my Final term examinations yeahh yeahh :).

I'm super happy exams are over . I mean like seriously , Now all to do left is pray for the results to be a good one (: Ohhh welll .

all i have to do now , Is wait for the results to be out.

and ouh , i know i did my very best during the paper's .

I know i did well .

so what do i have now ?

well , Im having my holidays now . I mean till 10 October .

then on the 11 October will be my attachment , there goes me going to the hospital and helping the patients out with a new skills to accomplish , gosh gosh .

well , my attachment is for 10weeks .

so it will end on the 17 December , Gosh . Then holidays again .

then i will be in my year 2.1 , but i must do well to reach there . Yeahh . i know i can do it (:

okay enough about attachment , hahahah (: holidays ferst .

To my dearest SuperHero Sayang ,

I Love yo so much , i know u know . but i want to tell u again and again . cos i want u to know ,

whatever happens , i will still love yo . i swear , and promise with all my heart (:

" Kini baru ku sedari , selama ini kau ku sayangi . Ikhlas ku nyatakan , kau yang ku sayangi."

well , you are the best .

even if we got into the biggest fight ,

u will know how to make me smile again .

Ouh well bhy , i will never stop loving you . & i hope that goes the same to you too :)

thanks for everything littlest things you do for me , and thanks for everything .

its always the littlest things that you do , can brighten my day .

okayy , bhy . i may have said I LOVE YOU for like a thousands times for the past 1year ,

but still , My I LOVE YOU means a lot .

cos , I really love you .

words cant really describe my love for you ,

but i know u know i mean it when i say it .

i hope your love for me will never have a fullstop in it .

cos , i dont want to see you walk away from my life .

and i only want you to be mine till we get married , *chey chey*.

Hahahah (:

okay dah bhy , i love yo muhd syazwan .

only u can make my day , a brighter day (:

syazwaNabilah ; 110909 .

it will always stay in my heart just like a tattoo .

i will always have yo .

okay dah , Im in love with my boyfriend (:

1 year annivesary

2010-09-11T10:29:00.010+08:00

The love we made and build ,
Its strong like a Pyramid .
we were first strangers ,
And then we started to like each other .
Texting each other ,
when we were with sumone else that we dont love .
Then we started to Love each other ,
And build our love .
both didnt thought we will go this far ,
today is our 1year being together .
and im proud to say that ,
Muhammad Syazwan bin Hassan Is the Only guy i love , now and forever .
No Guy , can replace all the love he showers me .
the trust he build in me .
No Guy can do what he do best , that is make me smile after hurting me .
No Guy , Even if you're ten times hotter than him , can replace his place in my heart .
and i mean what i say .
His the best boyfriend i ever had .
He'll be the last Boyfriend & My First and one & only husband in 7years time .

yes , we do fight , argue , dont agree with what each other is doing .
But hey , i know thats part of having a relationship .
thats why , every time we get into that , i'll keep quiet and listen to what he wants to say .
But sometimes , i do fight for my rights when im not in the wrong .
But he will never fail top say sorry and make me smile again .
he did alot of mistakes and i did alot too .
but we will talk things out , cos we care alot about our relationship that we build that we dont want it to fall just because of our carelessness .
we care so much about this relationship ,
that we'll do anything to build it strong back if its about to fall .
he change a lot throughout this relationship , but i endured every changes .
cos , thats love . and cos , i know he'll love me no matter what happens .

to my bhy baceeeennn ;
Thanks for everything u gave me for the past 1 year ,
i appreciate it alot .
sorry for all the sins i did , the hurts i gave you .
i promise i wont anymore .
and bhy , u pms not to change . cos i love the way u are now .
so pls dont change , i love yor alot (:
and please dont go finding other girls and leave me .
well , i know u wont do that cos u love me alot kan kan kan ????
hahahah (:
And bhy , i wont leave you okay . i swear & pms .
the love we build was so strong that i cant bare to watch u walk away leaving me all alone .
You're the best !
I love you bhybhy boy (:
and bhy ,
HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .
i know we can make it through to our 7years (:
and may we kekal until the end .
bhy , i so wannaa habve ur babies !! Heheh .
So , tkmo tglkan i kay ?
and , tkmo menggatal ! okay bhybhy ?
Love yawww .
syazwaNabilah ; 110909 .
when the love was made and build strong like a pyramid .

Happy birthday to me .

2010-09-10T23:09:00.005+08:00

God gave us life , to live it to the fullest .

He'll take us back when he want us back .

That means we have finish our job in this world .

Every year , we get older .

But that does not mean we're dying .

It means we lived another year of our life .

So , there i am praying i live long till i have grandchildren .

Cos , I know i did alot of sins .

and Not enough good deeds when im living .

So Here i am ,

Thanking God , For giving me a life to live in this world .

Thanking mum & dad , For bringing me to this world to smell the goods of this world .

' Happy Birthday , Amalia Nabilah . '

Yes , my Birthday falls on the first day of raya .

I can say , Its great :)

and and , Thank you to those who wished me happy birthday (:

I appreciate it alot .

No presents = Nevermind .

Its the thoughts that counts .

and i want to thank My dearest Mama & ayah . for ,

Inviting my dear boyfren to jalan raya with us .

I love my parents , alot .

now , im 17 .

Next i'll be legal . I shall not be naughty .

Cos , im always good . No more sins i want to make .

Haha (:

To boyrfren ; I know u're shy yesterday .

Cos my family is super big . I know I know .

but i just want to thank you for coming .

I Love yor alot .

I love u for who u are .

so pls , dont change . cos i dont adapt to it that well .

and i have enough hurts from the past .

and and , thank you bhybhy for th present .

I Love yor alot luh bhy (:

I know we can make it to 7years (:

Syg bhy baceeeen .

And and , thank you for everything for the past months .

syazwaNabilah ; 110909 .

when our love is made & build like a pyramid .

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY

2010-08-26T02:23:00.002+08:00

If god ask me to choose between You Or Justin Bieber ,

I'll pick you , Cos you ain't famous like Justin Bieber is .

If God ask me to make a wish ,

I'll wish that you're mine forever .

If God told me to Pick Someone To Live with Forever ,

I'll pick you .

How Amazing God is , to let me love sumone like you .

' A year older , And i Love you '

Today marks Baby's Birthday .

19th birthday . older u're getting .

and im not even 17 . gosh .

Well , bhybhy . i hope u had fun on ur birthday (:

I swear i love you .

Even if god gave me The hottest guy in this world to love , i'll still pick u instead .

Cos , the hottest guy in this world will have 10,000 girls going after him .

and he cant shower the love u showered me all this while .

how amazing you are , i cant describe it in words bhy (:

But for sure , You;re the best !

*winks*

And and ,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY BHYBHY BACEEEEEEENNNNNNNN !

I LOVE YOR ALOT !

I MISS YOR ALOT .

YOU'RE THE BEST , I SWEAR !

Forever , u'll stay in my heart .

i wont ever leave you and thats the promise i made from the starting of this relationship .

Syg you bhybhy (:

So , dont ever think that im going to leave you okay bhy ? cos i wont .

U're faithfulness , i cant find it in other guys .

ur kindness , i cant detect it in other guys .

God gave me to love you , and you're perfect .

Even if we fight , I treasure every fight . cos that's what makes our love for each other stronger.

correct ?

Love is never an easy journey .

There's stone & pebbles at some point .

but , behind every of it , The blue beach is waiting for us .

LOL , i know that does not make any sense .

But still , i know u'll know what i mean (:

okay dah bhy .

Now im off to bed (:

LOVE YOR , AGAIN.

Its all because I love him

2010-08-23T00:53:00.003+08:00

I never Loved a Guy This Much before .

U came into my life and showed me the meaning of True Love .

I Never miss a Guy this much before .

U came into my life and showered me with your faithfulness .

One Minute without you ,

I'll be missing you Alot .

Bhy , I Love you . and i know Yo Love me too (:

' Thanks ALLAH , for Giving me a Great Kind hearted soul to love . '

Now currently , Its 1am in the morning .

and bhy is asleep . i guess his just too tired .

and i miss him already , how sad .

Bhy will be superb mad if he knows im not asleep yet .

well , Im working tomorrow . oh gosh .

and i guess thats why bhy wanted me to sleep just now .

Heh , But i just cant bhy . my eyes not tired .

Usually bhy will accompany me till i sleep .

but not today , he snore first .

too tired ehy bhy ? shall wake u up for sahur later on okay bhybhy ?

and and , im glad u're mine .

cos , no other guys had love me like the way u're loving me now .

and i dont regret having u as my Last boyfriend and my going to be one & only Husband (:

haha , We've been strong through this relationship .

1month to go to our 1year being together , and it will be left 6years to count on .

bhy , Thanks for everything . The ups & downs .

you love me , you're faithfulness . you're kindness .

everything about you just make me smile .

Even ur smile , make me smile each day .

okay bhy , cant wait to go to work later on .

Ahaaaaa (:

Okay i should go to bed now . feeling tired right now .

okay .

Today no goodnight msg from bhybhy , sedeh .

and and 3 moredays till bhybhy turn 19 , tuer perk u bhy .

so old already uhk bhybhy i . hahah (: and and , so old . Ok Lawl .

i loike luh kacau bhybhy (:

that day kite jln2 at geylang kay bhy ? Okay I love you .

I miss you . Dah bye .

-Bhybhy masham .

And and , SERI MURNIE BTE SUHAT .

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO YOU , which falls on the 21august.

and and , I hope u enjoyed ur birthday (:

I Love yaw superGirlFriend .

*hugs&kisses*

u're the best (: and and , I miss you .

its been long since the supergirls had a meet up yeaheh ?

should do that soon okay bhybhy gerls ?

Song lyric

2010-08-20T21:29:00.003+08:00

Andai kau menjadi pelangi
Biar ku jadi awannya
Agar kita selalu bersama

Andai kau menjadi sang duyung
Biar ku jadi karangnya
Agar kita sentiasa bersua

Andai kau menjadi merpati
Biar ku menjadi sang bayu
Agar kita sering bertemu

Andai kau menjadi puisi
Biar ku jadi melodi
Bersama kita menyanyi

Andai ku menjadi rembulan
Sudikah kau menjadi kejora
Hingga pagi nanti

Andai esok aku menjadi tanah
Sudikah engkau menjadi bunga
Menghiasi dadaku.

-Merindu kepastian by Art Fazil

post it babe

2010-08-19T09:08:00.002+08:00

Summer Is here ,

The Sun is Hot And Bright .

Sentosa Is Here ,

The blue Beach Is Waiting for us .

Sand is here ,

They're waiting for us to seat on it and make love .

Baby , Lets go to the beach and have some fun okayy ?

' How i wish i was at the beach right now . '

What is Friendship ? Maybe , I should ask . What is TRUE Friendship ?

I've been asking myself for awhile now . Its like whats the meaning of True friendship ?

Yes , Friends do come and go . Thats common . Friends change over time .

Maybe , We should learn to adapt to it .

Yes , Friends is universal . We make friends everywhere , anywhere .

A stranger can become our bestest true friend ,

And our bestest true friend can end up being a stranger .

So what is really true friendship ?

Okayy ,

Maybe Friendship is about TRUST , CARING , LOVE , KINDNESS .

and friendship is about finding a friend who will always lend u a shoulder to cry on even if u dont meet everyday , they'll be there no matter what . Tsunami or flood they'll still go to ur house to see u cry & advice you .

And friendship is TRUSTING .

well , I love all my friends , that why . i dont adore fighting with with my friends over small matter .

and yes , i've been neglecting some of my friends .

Im finding my time , To spend time with them .

For now , Im busy with my school project . and im sorry to some of my friends .

and and , Friends is not about being together everywhere u go . Its about understanding each other.

Thats all ,

and for now , I love my JN1001B , SixAwesome , SUPERGERLS . teera , Fatin . ZAKIYYAH & MJ .and My childhood Friend (ayesha) and my Friends .

Okay . They've been there for me .

and thank you dearest friends for being there .

Fee & teera & TORN PIT PIT . U're specially missed :)

Okay Holidays has been hectic .

bored for some reasons .

Okay , Have been working this holiday .

attachment of macdonald everywhere . and i'm Lovin It !

Hahha :)

Well , I must say i own a sweet cinnamon melt boyfriend :)

I Adore him so muchhhheeeeeee !

babyboo , I Love you .

with him , i explore everything :)

foods & new places .

and we have not been fighting and it will stay this way .

we've been understanding each other now .

Like , We tell each other what we hate about each other and try to improve on it .

this is to make or relationship better .

1 more month to 1year and i cant wait for it bhybhy :)

We survived through ups& downs and im glad we're holding on to this for till we get married .

Awwww , Bhy I miss you lioa .

tomorrow we watch step up 3 okayy ?

Okay dahh .

And and , thanks for being everywhere , anytime when i needed you .

I swear you're the best .

You're the heart in me that beats 100times/min .

I swear my heart goes fast faster fastest when im with you :)

Ouhh baby , u never fail to make me smile widely .

Love ya Bacen !

Okay dah .

110909 ; stays strong in my heart .

syazwaNabilah is my middle name , Ok Laughss !

Okay dah bhy , Hugs&kisses :)

BHYBHY BACEN IS THE BEST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay this saturday one of my Supergirl will turn 17years old .

whoa , im jealous right now that everyone is turning older before me .

whoa whoa , faster faster luh my turn !

Okay okay , she'll be 17 and im proud to have her as my supergirl .

never fail to make me laugh and cheer me up (:

awwww , she knows who she is :)

i'll dedicate a post to her on this saturday aye .

i love you babe !

okay so now , im done updating .

simply , im living holidays mood right now .

but im studying for test , doing projects .

so whats there for holiday ?

working luh , this & that .

but i still appreciate this 2weeks holiday :)

thank you .

Haha , now now .

fasting has been okay .

girlfriend just arrive like 5mins ago , so . spoil uhk ni girlfriend .

org nk puaser full , nk ptotong steam jek tau .

_|_ !

but nevermind , 1 week girlfriend does not kill .

so , im craving for kebab .

dengdeng , kuih kaswi . kuih ondeh ondeh .

kuih tart . smuer uhk . all the hari rayer food (:

i cant wait for rayer !

awwww , this year baju colour aper plak ehy ?

Okay dah bye .

too much talking hurts my stomach .

Okay Lol .

Bye .

I Love my boy .

2010-08-11T21:05:00.002+08:00

' Time fly Fast enough that i cant even catch It . '

I Love every single day when im with you .

I never get sick & tired of you , never will i .

Because , U showed me the meaning of love . You proved to me That You're different from other guys .

And This love we build like a pyramid , It will grow stronger and stronger .

U never fail to make em cry , sad , mad at you .

But at The same time , U know the way to cheer me up and make me smile .

seeing you face will make me miss you .

But without looking at you , I miss yo already .

U shower me with your faithfulness Love ever .

And i thank you for doing that (:

our date was on 110909 . today marks our 11months being in this ride of pyramid .

And 1more month to our 1year annivesary .

U gave me ur all , Ur life , Ur heart to hold on to .

I promise i will never let it go , i wont ever let them go .

Cos , U're the guy that change my life , Change my mindset towards love .

yes , sometimes i feel like u're gonna leave me but i know that aint true right baby ?

You wont , cos i know u love me with ur all (:

Lets make it through this Love together kay bhybhy ?

I know u love me , u know i love you .

and and , u may not be my ferst boyfren but u are my last boyfren .

and u'll be my ferst and one & only husband in 6years1months time (:

right bhybhy kan ?

Okayyy (: , and bhy . puaser full okay ? tkmo nk off day off day ! Syyygggg bhybhy snore .

HAPPY 11months ANNIVESARY !

I LOVE YO ALOT (:

I MISS YO ALOT .!

dont leave me aye ?

110909; still counting and going strong (:

The love is met and build into a Pyramid (:

I Love my Boy and i aint sharing !

Updated already .

2010-08-05T20:52:00.003+08:00

Its all Because , Im Strong to Go Everything .

Every Alibi , I cried my tears .

Its all Because , I Love You with all yo with all my heart .

Every Fight , I tried to stay happy .

Its all because , without yo Im nothing .

Every Day , U're my heart That beats .

' Because , I Love you . '

Hello Readers .

Ouh Yes , Its been so Long since i updated now .

Its Now august , Ouh gosh . Time really past by fast ehy ?

Talking about august , There's alot of things going on in august . Hahah .

Let me see ,

On 9august - HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE .

10 / 11 august - Puase for all Muslim People .

11 august- My CN Test / HAPPY 11months for me (:

14-26august - HOLIDAY FOR ME . WHOA WHOA .

Told ya , ALot of stuff . and yes . Holidays , I mean like whoa !

okay , had sch just now . Was a short day for me . i feel like time fly really fast just now .

And and , had my third hepB jap just now , It was numb for awhile . But not anymore .

then after school , Bhybhy blanje me Ramen Ten , and We enjoyed our time together (:

then headed home .

talking about test and school , I had my BH test that time .

had the results back and i scored 38 and the half over 50 . which im proud of myself .

but i know i can do better in the future test , i want to score more next time .

told bhybhy about it , and he was so proud of me that he made me a 2dollar heart shape and i'll keep it till forever .

And and , i just told mummy about it and she was so shock . Hahah (:

ouh well , Next i must study hard for my CN Test .

And and also , Phase test went well . Really well . And i did my best for it (:

Ouh well , im doing well in school Okay . No worries .

talkin about school , Tmr there will be NDP celebration in sch (: cant wait .

and and on the sunday , all CE Simei students must go back to sch cos the YOG lighting up the torch in our sch , how great ! I loike that (:

I miss alot of people i guess .

I miss secondary school people , I miss them .

I miss Supergirls , alot ehy (:

I miss Camp People , gosh ! i wish i can have that camp again . (:

Ouh dearest people i miss alot , lets hang out soon okay ? I miss ya'll .

and Bhy , I love you with all my heart .

And and bhy , 6moredays to 11month right bhy ?

So fast kan ? and then it will be 1more month to 1 year annivesary .

ouhhh , U're the best boyfriend !

and i cant bear to loose you , u're like my heart .

that beats every single second of my life .

And i swear without you , im nothing .

U showered me with all ur love and i thank you for doing that for the whole 10months .

and and ,

whatever it is .

110909 ; stays in my heart forever .

syazwaNabilah .

Bhy , U're the best and i wont let you go . i pms (:

SO dont u let me go okay bhybhy ? and im counting down to ur birthday bhybhy !

Syg bhybhy Bacen !

and we're going to stick together through the ups& downs .

its all normal for us . and i love the way u make me wanna smile .

make love

2010-07-29T21:25:00.003+08:00

I got My dress On , My shades On .

U Got Ur Pants On , Ur shoes On .

We hold hands and walk Off so sweetly ,

That everyone stare at us and went ,

" They're so sweeet together . "

Muhd Syazwan ; I Love you bhybhy (:

' Let's Get Naked & Make Love . '

Okay then , The picture above is so random (:

I swear this is just a random post , cos im damn bored . and and im trying to memorize my steps to the phase test im having this saturday .

Ouh yeah , Talking about phase test ,

GOODLUCK TO ALL NURSES ,

Taking the test this saturday . Try ur best & you can do it (:

ouh whoa whoa , Seems that the phase test cant wait huh ?

And im getting butterflies in my stomach already .

enough about phase test , Im sooooo dead talking about it .

Im praying hard i wont get too nervous that i drown myself in sweat .

Gosh , Okay enough !

Better stop talking about phase test , already .

That boy , I cant keep my eyes off that boy .

Ouh yeah , The most hot Husband i Have (:

some may say that , Im talking too fast saying that his my husband .

But hey , if in 6years2months time , u see me gettting married to him . dont be shock okay ?

Hahah , cos i really love him with all my heart . my soul , my life .

and and bhy , dont make me feel like you're using me okay ?

Cos , i dont want to end up getting hurt by you .

Good that we're not fighting that much now . I wish all this fight will not happen anymore .

Just stop , and we live our lovely life together (:

even how may times u make me cry , hurt me , break me into pieces .

no matter what , i'll forgive you and even love u more .

that is what true love is called .

i see , u are strong to endure my shits attitude , the hurts i given you .

the way i break u into tears . The way i Lie not to hurt you .

u still love me no matter what .

but now i learn ,

Really learn , That Whatever u or me do mistake .

Its better to hurt each other with the truth than the lie .

cos that will hurt more , right bhybhy ?

I told you from the starting , i love you no matter what happens .

even if the tornado hits me in the face , i will still say ur name out loud !

Okay bhybhy , I Love you . and i know u know that .

110909 ; still going strong strong strong !

GOODNYTES

2010-07-28T22:06:00.004+08:00

It Does not matter On how shitty Ur life is , It Matters on how u handle those shits .

It Does Not matter on How hurt Love is , It Matters on How u overcome those pain .

It Does not matter on How Many Tears u cry , It matters on how U wipe those tears away by urself .

It Does not matter on How hard u fall , It Matters on How U get back up without any support .

Love every single second of ur life , cos anytime u can just not live any life anymore .

It Does not matter Happy Or sad , Treasure every moment in ur life :)

' Watch me Burn , Watch me cry . Still Im Strong '

Love has been okay now .

we agreed to talk things out instead of shouting at each other or fight .

so , I just wanna say i Love my Husband .

Okay bhy ? U know i know .

Hehehe :)

and and , We agreed to follow each others rules .

Agreed to what each other dont like .

ALot more , And i thank you bhy , for enduring my sh*t Attitude .

u're so sweet . and i love you alot :)

and and , Im sorry for the hurt i've gave you .

i make u cry , i make u tear , i hurt you .

But , i promise i wont anymore okay bhy ? U know what im saying is true right bhy ?

I've hurt u during the camp , i've hurt u alot more .

But whatever it is , im learning form my past mistakes .

and im never repeating it anymore cos i dont wish to hurt you anymore bhy .

The date 110909 willl stay in my heart forever ,

Like , i will countdown till 6years2months .

u know , u changed my life . and i love you more more more each day .

Without you , i feel like the worlds empty .

but with you by my side , everything is okay (:

Like the world is in our hands to control . and i love feeling that way when u're around .

and im saying all this from the bottom of my heart .

Okay bhybhy ?

Lets not fight anymore okay bhy ?

anything if u dont agree to em / my attitude / my ways of life .

tegor me , and tell me to change my ways and all okay bhy ?

i wont mind u controlling me .

And and ,

I love the way u Kiss :)

Goodnyte bhybhy .

Sweetdreams ! Muacks !

Syggg syazwan , bhy snore .

110909 ; will be in my heart forever .

DOnt leave me kay bhy ? '

Im nothingwithout you , im empty without you .

I Love you bhybhyku .

and that , words cant describe my love for you .

bt i know u know how much i love you .

i love you with all my life/soul/heart and brains .

I Love you so much that when we fight i feel like theres a gap btween us .

thats why i ahte it when we fight with each other .

Im just scared u'll leave me when we fight .

so lets just dont fight anymore cos i know u know how fighting makes me feel right bhy ?

I Love you .

MUHD SYAZWAN ; I LOVE YOU SUNGGUN BHHYYYYY !

DONT LEAVE ME KAY ?

empty

2010-07-25T19:29:00.002+08:00

They say When u get lost , There's always a Light that will Show u ur way .

They say When u fall out of Love, No matter How long it takes There will always be Someone To pull u Back In Love and Love you for who u are .

They say When U give up , There will always be sumone motivating you Maybe not by words but they're praying in their heart you'll Help urself By Getting back up .

They Say When U feel Like u're a shit to sumone , Think about the happy moments u had with that sum1 And Just Fix everything back on track cos That sumone is special to you .

They Say , Life is always Unfair & Unperfect . And i agree . Cos , Perfectness will always Break us down Again & Again

EMPTY .

' You Can Look Through my eye & Imagine Every Alibi .'

Okay , Im too Tired to elaborate about camp .

and yes , My throat hurts more & more .

Yes , I forgive & forget easily now .

No , I dont play revenge . Its not worth my time .

ANd when i forgive & forget . Dont ever remind me about it anymore .

yes , i was feeling shitty But ur smile just make me smile .

Yes , I smile on the outside cos i dont wish to spoil others mood .

Ouh well , Life isnt Easy sometimes , Seriously .

And yes , I have plenty of thoughts in my head right now .

Seriously , I wonder why i feel like my head is exploding . I dont know .

I feel like there's so many things happening in my head that its going to explode anytime now . I feel so , i dont know . Gosh .

okay , This is where everything seems so dark . Seems so not worth it to live for .

But i wont give up , I wont fall anymore .

I wont do the things that will hurt me . The things that will make me cry .

cos i deserve to smile , any moment now . My tears are gonna fall . roll down my cheeks .

the door is shut and im empty .

im not being optimistic this few days . u know , thinking positive ?

Hell no , im not doing that .

i try my best to make him happy , Even if that means sacrificing my own happiness . i will .

well , it wasnt an easy journey for me in love .

the ups& the downs .

It will Always make me tear , but i forgive & forget easy now .

I cant stay mad at him long . Cos I cant live without him .

He's like my heart . That beats for my life .

if his gone , Nothing beats . Im not gonna live . Get it now ?

sometimes , the way u act . It offend me . Like , when u walk away when i wanna talk to yo .

I feel like as if im another branch standing there , Like im nothing to yo .

Yo know , im trying my best to make u happy , to do the right thing so u dont get mad even if that means i have to ignore everything/everyone in this world .

even if it means that i have to climb the highest mountain to prove to u my love for u , i will .

Still , i Love u no matter what . And that is a pms i made to myself and i know i wont break that pms even if a thousand obstacle's hits me right at the face , i'll never let u go .

I Love yo , Muhd syazwan .

with all my heart i do .

haix .

Okay Bye .

Im tearing .

Nights .

what i feel

2010-07-19T21:11:00.008+08:00

I feel Like I dont know how to describe ,

It cant always be Perfect .

The things u ever wanter , u may not even get it .

But the things u never ask for , They'll just appear .

i learn from mistake , Ouh do i ?

They say im a grown up and i got the right to think on my own .

But do they let me ?

I feel so sad now , What am i ? a 4year old ? DO i look that way ?

they say , i can make the right & wrong decision on my own ,

but do they let me ?

' A Smile to you does not mean im happy '

Goodnitght Readers , Yes im updating on monday .

Cos , I feel like crying . I feel like letting everything out of my mind .

I cant stand this NO SPACE , PRIVACY thing .

And i cant stand all this saying you're telling me .

im a grown up , a 17 year old girl .

Yes im a girl with a virgina . but that does not mean , u have to control me more just because i own them .

Seriously ,

MUM & DAD , U ALWAYS SAY : ' YOU'RE A GROWN UP , U KNOW WHATS RIGHT AND WHATS WRONG. U CAN DECIDE FOR YOURSELF ' .

but u never gave me a chance to explore them myself .

U never ever let me touch my mistake . I do make mistake , but when i make them all i get from you are naggings , and old stories . saying this & that .

HEY ! give me a chance to have my privacy !

Im 17 and LOVE is part of life . right ? i bet that never change form your season .

i undertsand we come from different season's ,

you're from spring & im from summer .

hey , GROWTH AND DEVELOPMENT at my stage depends more on my enviroment .

last time , when i was still a new born , i obviously need you guys(mum&dad) more .

But now , things change, and u cant blame me for that .

every single parents in this universe face this problem whereby their child prefer to have a boyfriend , a friend , a bestfriend to talk to .

cos , since young , U have been my pillar of strength . i thank you for that .

But mum & dad , Please let me be a normal 17 year old .

I may be a girl , i own a virgina . yes i do .

But i know how to take care of myself .

WHen i make mistakes , dont tell em what to do . U cant tell me my mistakes , but never ever correct them .

how am i suppose to learn form my mistakes when u keep scolding & nagging at me ?

How ? Just tell me how .

u may feel like i put my boyfriend , friends , bestfriends first .

But remember Mum & dad .

Whatever happens , right or wrong . first or last . U will always have me there . always there by you side till i find a proper work and find my own house or whatsoever .

That will be sooo lonnnggg in the future .

It dosent matter if i put my boyfriend , friend , bestfriend now ,

cos u know why ?

Jus imagine Mum & dad , If i dont spend time with them .

what am i in sch ? a loner .

Do u want me to die of loneliness ? no right .

we have family outings .

MUm & dad , u both have ur friends too .

U spend time with ur friends at work alll day long m but did i ever say that u put ur friends first before ur family , i never did say that ..

Just try to understand , im no longer ur 3year old daughter.

IM 17 mum , dad . I want my whole life freedoom .

U're not giving it to me , and mum i know if u're reading this u'll be like ,

I give what u want but u dont do what i ask u to do .

I know that , But now . School and my future is important . that , I will have my time learning it .

tell me , u started just recently too right ?

u know when i feel lost , i get sadder . i ten to give up in life .

I JUST NEED MY SPACE !

MY SPACE TO EXPLORE MY OWN WORLD WITH MY OWN MISTAKES CORRECTED BY MY OWN !

without u telling me this & that .

yes the main thing here is that IM A GIRL . U OWN A VIRGINA , BLAH BLAH BLAH !!

But god gave us life to make mistakes , to go through life independently . To explore ur own life .

NO ONE IS PERFECT .

One more ,

Please . Let me choose on who i want to be with . this time i want to be syazwan .

So stop disturbing my love with him . this comes directly from my shattered heart !

And please , i dont choose for u ur love story .

when You guys(mum&dad) meets , i never even force or destroy or say this & that not right blah blah .

HEY ! i bet my dearest grandparents did not even choose for u who u want to be with .

once again mum , u'll be like . ' biler aku ngan ayah kau bercinta , kiter dah tunang & dah keje'

But before u tunang , u fall in love , and go for a couple of dates , before getting tunang right ?

Yes , this comes directly to what im keeping since the day i felt like hurt .

and yes , this is what me & syazwan is going through .

Falling in love , going for dates ... then in 6years2months time . when its the right time . then we get married .

Im just plain sad & Hurt by how u're controlling me !

SO LET ME GO ! I DONT WISH TO BE STUCK IN THIS STUPID CAGE ANYMORE .

the more u control me , i feel more depress ! get it ? i will get all stress .

cant concentrate !

id u let me go , fly on my own wings .

i'll prove that all ur negative thoughts about me is wrong !

and dont worry about me & syazwan , nothing STUPID will happen between us like u are always scared about !

we may be different gender , but we know the laws . we know th agama .

we made a mistake once , but that was a past not to be rememebered .

The more u control me , the more i will fail to lead a perfect life . okay ?

Dedicated to mum & dad .

from ur beloved daughter , nabilah .

im not wrtting this to hurt you but just to make u realise what you're doing to me .

okay ?

To bhybhy , Im grateful i have u in my life . seriously .

whatever happens , dont leave me kay ?

I Love you bhy snore . With all my life .

i need you like you need me .

we'll make it through together kay ?

My Love for u is strong .

So dont ever leave me kay ?

Te AMo Bhybhy (:

random sweets

2010-07-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

' They're so yummmyyyy and sweeeeettt '

Okay now is like 1115 in the night .

and im craving for all those things above ,

Ouh gosh , they're beautifool .

hahha , YUmmsss . Delicious .

BHY ! Get me all that ?

Please * sad face *

Hahahah (:

And one more thing , when i look at the pictures .

It just reminds me on how sweet my baby is towards me (:

and i Love him .

Okay well ,

Gtg .

Goodnight , shall dreams sweet stuff tonight :)

Bhy , I Love you .!

whats happening now

2010-07-13T21:32:00.004+08:00

She was Just sixteen years old ,

When she wish , She was Never hurt .

when she wish, she only had one guy in her entire life who love her for her ,

when she wish , When she wont get hurt by the other gender .

But Then ,

She was Just Sixteen Years Old ,

when She found her one & Only SuperHero .

and she wished she knew him from the beginning of her sixteen years old .

Your My Wish Tonight .

' A tear Dropping Does Not mean im sad . '

Life has been Way too full of things to study for .

I mean , seriously .

Its only the beginning of term 1.2 , and i have my Phase(practical) test coming up .

I Have two of them , Indeed. which is end of this month .

and i have A project which due in 2weeks time ? Ouh well , due on the 29th .

How can life be so fast ?

Ont top of everything , I have tons Of things to study on .

For my class test . Well ,

so many things in so lil time .

But whatever it is , I can manage all this .

now currently , focusing on Both My BH & CN subjects .

i really want to get a higher GPA this time round ,

so that i cant achieve if i put no effort in it right ?

so , im starting on my revising of that two subjects .

Like seriously , Im aiming for Poly .

So i better do this with all my heart aite .

and yeah , i so Love sch .

Friends has been wonderfully Great .

I Love the presence of my friends around my circle of life .

With them , Laughter , crazyness is presence .

I can never be Bored with them around .

Even the littlest things , makes us laugh Like the whole world is in our hands .

Ouh Thank you for the great friends i have .

Talking about friends , I Miss alot of my Friends .

Zakiyyah , Mjane , Eqa , Murnie , Feeqah , Teera , Fatin .

alot more , but u guys know who u are .

And Superhero ,

He has been a great thing that has happen in my life .

I Love him , and that can never change .

The Love for him will never fade , but instead it will harden like gold .

and i Will never ever let him go until whenever .

Its Like , Me & him. we love each other .

And i thank him for all the love he gave me throughout the ten months we've been together .

Bhy , FOr u to know . I Love you so much .

That Even the littlest thing you do , makes me fall in Love with you more .

And bhybhy , U are my One & Only .

Bhy , I Syg You so much Much ehy bhy .

I hope u feel that way too , but i know u do . * winks*

*hugs & Kisses*

Bhy , i Never loved a guy this much .

U may not be my first but i swear u'll be my last & my one and Only husband in 6years2months time .

U know bhy , sometimes i have this feelings that u're going to leave me even before we reach 6years2months .

But i know u can prove that felling of mine wrong right bhy ?

I Love you Bhy .

DOnt ever leave me okay bhy ?

syazwaNabilah ; 110909 .

10months and still going strong .

10months being together and i love him.

2010-07-11T23:40:00.002+08:00

They say It's Never easy .

Falling out of love is hard but falling for Betrayal's worst.

They say Its Impossible , But i never give up .

Through up & down , I smile all the away .

Because , I deserve to smile .

all im doing now is Taking caution when im in love .

and all my scars are open .

' A smile Does Not mean I'm Happy '

Truthfully , I feel hurt right now .

I feel like , Im a bird in a cage waiting for the doors to be open .

It will never will , i guess .

Well , Life is life right ?

The worst thing is , it was supposed to be a happy day . Instead , i was so sad that i teared in the bus , without murniYattie knowing .

I feel like , u see . Im in the cage all alone .

when ure out there enjoying your life . U enjoy and im left alone ?

I may seem smiling my life , saying everythings okay .

but reality check , im hurt . i smile cos i think i deserve too .

and i dont others want to know that , everythings not okay .

I remember years ago , i told myself to be careful when falling in love .

I will not hurt myself or let others hurt me , cos i cant bear the pain anymore .

I feel dumb when im hurt , I feel weak when im hurt .

I just feel stupid being hurt , I feel like a tiny tiny old peanut without the shell .

get what im feeling now ?

But whatever it is ,

I still Love my Syazwan no matter what ,

His still the best (:

my heart is for him only .

I Love you bhy .

And time just let me love u more and more .

HAPPY TEN MONTHS ANNIVERSARY (:

I LOVE YOU BHYBHY SNORE .

Im off to bed .

Im too emotional to post now .

Goodnytes , shall update more soon .

Updated again

2010-06-30T14:39:00.003+08:00

ECLIPSE DUDE !

IM SO WATCHING IT TOMORROW , WHOA !

WILL BELLA CHOOSE EDWARD OR JACOB ?

DURH , EDWARD .

Okay people , Like hello Im back to update this blog of mine .

ouhh well , im left with days of holiday and im still in the holiday mood . Ouh whoa .

And yes , im going out tmr . To watch eclipse babe . At bishan . ouh whoa .

Im so spending so much . ouh well .

And and , i cant wait to be in campus , well days left .

i dont know where's all my sch stuff . i want to buy a new school bag .

Plus a new school shoe , plus i want to alter my pants . Ouh whoa .

this is what u call , so many things so little time . Ouh whoa .

Damn , i need more time now .

Dear time , please pass slowly okay ? Haha . (:

Okay yes im still getting free internet . this will continue till idk when .

ouh gosh , lets see i have 4moredays to get my sch stuff ready and i havent pack a single thing .

like ouh my god .

And ouh well , Life has been wonderfully great . Like yeah (:

and and , Love has been Fine .

well , every single thing is okay now . Yeaheh :)

Now now ,

Let me see what i can update about .

Hmmmmmmm *thinking*

okay well , i so have nothing to update about now .

and yes , I did my kening ystd . and now i so think its like all those typical2 people ,

u know i know who i referring to .

Okay Lol .

But ouh yeah ouh yeah , ouh well .

i so have nothing to update about .

gosh .

Okay then , Im going off now .

i shall update then next time im getting free internet again okay .

Ouh well .

Bye .

i know my blog is dead , ouh well .

Life is awesome , what to update ? nothing .

Okay dah go bye .

Tc people !

and whoa school , Like gosh . Yeeaahhhhhhhhh!

And i love bhybhy snore dodol .

Ahaaaa :)

I Love you bhy , i know u know that .

so yeah , 12moredays aye bhy to 10months anniversary aite bhy .

okay dah dah .

Ily alots :)

Updated ..

2010-06-24T15:07:00.003+08:00

Okay , im still getting free internet in the library now .

with Baby bonchet.

Gosh , How sengket can i be ? Ok lol .

Well , ignore my previous post cos i find it stupid . Oh whoa .

okay , I shall now tell the story of my OH SO WONDERFUL LIFE .

Okay okay , where should i start ? cos its been a long time since i update , okay wait no .

Hah (:

OUhh well , Time flies so fast that i just go with the flow .

Like seriously , I enjoy every single day of my life .

where should i start ? Hmmmm , *thinkings*

Okay , since now is a holiday season . I've been going out Almost everyday .

ouhh well , what are holidays for ? DAMN !

After 3months of attachment , i shall now enjoy my 3weeks only holiday . Yes ONLY .

Why not give me 3months holiday ? that will be a miracle !

Hahaha , ouhh well . still , i've been going out alot . Went sentosa for 2times . Went to everywhere like everyday .

from sentosa to birthday celebrations and all , whoa .

Life is just Life right now .

Going with the flow , is what i do best .

Ouh yeah .

Life is fine , well problems ? I dont care . problems ? i dont give a shit .

ouhh well , for now there isn't any . so i shall just enjoy my life .

When there's problems , im sure i can overcome it . Ouh well , amalia chendol(baby suroh type) katerkan .

My holiday is going to be over soon , ouh well im growing Fatter . Gosh . Eat eat eat .

And TO MUHD SYAZWAN BIN HASSAN , U PUN BONCHET ! TKMO NK KACAU I . OKAY BHY ? SYG YOU BABI GEMOK .

Going back to campus ? Oh damn , so fast ? Haiz .

New stuffs to learn , i so cant wait for the next attachment .

Fun skills , oh my god .

Okay lol ,Im so Loving attachment life .

campus ohh campus , i miss u .

Okay well .

1 more week of holiday and Campus here i come .

Okay well , im going to enjoy my days in campus .

Talking about campus , i miss the food , the enviroment there .

Okay okay , everything is fine .

i swear i dont wish to elaborate about my life .

i mean , i will update only when im feeling down about stupid problems .

ouhh well , simply im enjoying every single minute of my life now .

a Phrase i post in my wall at facebook ;

There's Always Ups & Downs In Life . But the most important thing is that U enjoy every single moment of it . The sadness or The Happyness . ♥ ♥

Okay , thats what im doing now .

good or bad , happy or sad .

im enjoying my life . like yeah (:

Okay now .

What shall i tell about ?

Okay since holidays are here , i spent times with my friends .

Zakiyyah , Supergirls , SGH GROUP 3 .

DAMN .

I miss my secondary school life .

when everyday is 'I can hang out with my people' day .

Oh gosh , but nevermind .

i enjoy my life now , more more .

Ouhh yeah .

Dearest MurniYatie Binte Alias ; I miss you luh bhy .

rumah dkt , tpy tk meet . aper nie ?

*bila rindu ku sebut namer mu .*

Okay lol .

I miss you aye bhy bhy .

And and , Love Life has been EH-OKAYYY (:

Okay , nothing to elaborate here .

cos everything is fine .

Only that , I Love my Bhybhy snore no matter what happens (:

and imy even though ure beside me i still miss you .

i know im sweet , okay Lol .

okay okay .

Dah dah .

Im done updating .

BhyBhy Snore Bonchet , I Love you .

(clear enough bhy ?)

and bhy , i only have one bhybhy and thats you .

wawaNabilah;110909 and i still love you like i how i used to .

Okay dah dah . Syggg bhybhy snore .

Okay dah , im hungry .

bye people (:

going to choa from this library cos its freaking cold .

Okay Byebye .

Tc Readers .

YUMMEH .

2010-06-22T14:10:00.001+08:00

Okay , Im currently getting free internet at yishun Library .

Okay Lol .

With Fat baby . Hahah .

Okay ,

Life has been way okay . Well Its holiday .

And yeaheh , Pay has come in .

aper lagi ? SHOPPPPING LUHHH ! (okay , no no )

Muahaha .

Okay i shall update when i feel like it .

for now , Dead blog .

Okay Bye .

I love bhy .

shall go starbucks later on .

pyramid

2010-06-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

' Just Like a Pyramid '

i know i should be resting or whatever . but i just cant get my body on bed now , i feel so not tired but my eyes just wanna close , ouh gosh .

But i just feel like updating my blog now .

Ouh well , nothing much to update about . just that im so damn damn tired , body ache and stuffs .

i just wanna have 2whole days of rest , like not waking up and noone disturbing me .

and on the 12june , im going to sentosa .

i dont know why 12june , maybe bcos thats like a day for me to rest after all the attachment is done , ohhmy .

just cant wait .

ouhh well , now my eyes is very very tired now .

Gosh , i just want to rest in bed now .

tomorrow , i'll be on the afternoon shift .

and bhy will be taking me from work (:
okay syg sama dhier !

Bhy , I Love you Bhy .

Okaygo ,

9moredays to 9months annivesary (:

awwwww, i love muhd syazwan . (:

dont leave me aye bhy ??

edit this post later on

2010-05-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

' Say My Name , Say My Name . '

Okay , For sure Prettay well i have not been updating this blog of mine . Ouh well , Just to say in short terms , Life has been wonderfully Great This few days , weeks .

And im super sorry for not updating about life , Cos im just super busy with this & that which is both attachment .

well , all that is going to end on 11june2010 .

ouh gosh , Nice date to end attachment ehy ?

okay whatever . So , Like i say Life has Been Prettay awesome.

Ouh well , what ,more can i ask for .

Ouh only for attachment to end faster . and year 1.2 nursing , here i come .

*laughssss* .

Okay , now currently waiting for Dearest Boyfriend to text me .

he's at work , and im missing him . Ouh Gosh .

Okay Lol .

Anyways , My attachment is ending soon , meaning that holiday is coming in . Ouh my .

I cant wait for holiday , cos u know why ? i've been wanting to go to sentosa , the beach , The sun , The sand .

awwww , its calling me .

i so cant wait for holiday . oh my oh my please come faster .

okay , I just went to a wedding . i dont know who's , but oh well . The food was awesome :)

Now now , My eyes are Tired . Super Tired . I dont know why .

im on morning shift tomorrow (:

and guess what ? My dearest cousin will be at SGH for 2weeks attachment .

meaning that i can meet her , awwww . I love her (:

and im going home with her on tuesday (:

cant wait cant wait . Oh my Oh my :)

okay im currently doing nothing , just listening to songs & facebook-ing .

Ouh well , im super bored that i just feel like sleeping my day off now .

okay i shall , go to bed after i update this blog of mine .

its all dusty aye right now ? i promise this will be a long long post till u sleep halfway reading it , aye people ?

okay let me see , what shall i update u on .

okay here goes my updating aye people ? dont sleep halfway reading it okay ?

Well , Firstly about life .

My life has been wonderfully awesome .

ouh well , attachment has been cool too :)

Just finishing up my log book for this last week , and i'll be done . and people at ward 53c is all wonderfully awesome :)

prettay friendly they are :)

and they are all the gereks !

and and , the patients there are awesome too :)

ouhhh , cant wait for tomorrow to go to work .

and yeaheh , after this i'll be in campus .

it means studying new skills . awwww , i loike :)

New skills which is non-boring !

Ouh welll , i cant wait for that .

And and , Friends has been wonderfully awesome :)
just had a meet up with fee & murnie that time .

hang out at macdonald , and we updated each other about each other's life :)

awww , i miss hanging out with them aye .

nevermind , holiday is coming up soon . so here we go to hang out aye bbyg's ?

and for some , i miss yo all aye .

Like ergh , now is not the same anymore .

everyone has their life to lead , but whatever it is ,. all i will remember at heart uh ehy .

ouh well , i miss all the old times , when i used to be not busy and hanging out every weekend without fail .

life change ehy now ? Im concentrating on studies now .

sorry for the limited time spend on friends , i promise to have more time management in the future aye ?

okay then , for now i miss all my bbyg's .

They know who they are :)
Loved Loved Loved all of them :)

Take note : Maner nie si teera rahayu ? col me soon aye bbyg.

I miss you luh sis :)

to Fatin hamimah : I miss you luh sis , And and Last long long okaygo bhy ?

to Murniyattie : I will miss you when u go to poly , alermak ! And and last long too okaygo bhy ?

to bayyzuraCole : kamuh lagi ! Last last long long dengan si dia iyer ? okay ? Love mu .

okay My love has been great too (:

without fail , he will make me smile (:

okay , 9months is coming . ouh well .

time flies fast ehy ? i cant believe its going to be our 9months annivesary .

u know sometimes i still have the feelings that his going to leave me , but then .

he already prove that feeling of mine so wrong .

so now , bhy u know i love yo right ?

u know i wont leave yo right ?

yo wont leave me to right ?

ouh well , I love yo bhy . *hugs ketat2 tknk let go*

haha , Thanks for the things & Love u gave me for the past 8months ehy bhy .

sumpah i syg yo sorang jek , noone else can replace yo luh dearest syazwan .

haha , i still remember teh first time we msg each other :)

awwwww , bhy cpt luh msg i skrg .

okay dah rindu nie (:

and bhy , lets tell our love story to our children in the future aye bhy ?

haha (:

and promise me yo wont l;eave me aye bhy ?

tkmo leave me kay ? promise ?

okay ,

wawaNabilah ; 110909 .

8months and still going strong .

okay then ,

I love muhd syazwan only one :)

i hope yo love me like how i love yo .

please dont stop loving me .

yo know yo're the one who changed my life ,

who showed me true love .

yo the one who make me smile on the inside :)

bhy , syg yo luhx .

okay im off to bed now , super tired .

my eyes are closing soon :)

bye readers , shall update next week aye ? okay dah bye !

Im always here .

2010-05-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

The last tear that rolled down my cheeks told me ,

not to waste anymore tears cos it hurts them to leave my eye .

There , I tear when i need to .

i havent Cried for quite sometime.

At this moment of time ,

i just feel like letting go all my tears and just make my eyes dry for awhile .

i thought i try , try to step across the line .

feel this pain , its really possible .

' I close my eyes form the view , cos it hurts me to see them . '

Well , Its been awhile since i update this blog of mine yeah ?

So now , i shall update it at this moment , Life has been Hectic .

Life Has Been a bit messy , but i'll survive life like i always do .

Now Now , the thing that time flies so fast yeah ? 3more weeks of attachment , then 3weeks holiday .

and back in campus it will be , meeting friends back again .

eating at Cafe2 back again , how fast can time fly yeah ?

well , attachment has been wonderfully________ . I really need to pass my attachment posting huh .

and i got tons more of skills to complete ? Yeah i do .

So within this 3weeks , i need to complete my skills and keep a professional attitude , body language and more .

no long finger nails , no anything that will destroy the professionalism of nursing .

ouh well , whatever it is . i know i can do it :)

well , tomorrow im on the morning shift . which is 7am to 3pm . ouhhh i hope i can survive tomorrow .

and thanks to all those people in my group whom make me smile everyday at work :)

I Love you people alot .

thanks for the laugthers at the ward and anywhere .

And and , I enjoy being around the staff nurse , enrolled nurse and senior staff nurse , and all the Nurses there :)

They make my day a Happy Day .

okay enough about attachment , i hope my other classmates are surviving theirs :)

ouhh , i cant wait to go back to campus .

and when in campus , my dearest attachment friends . please tegor me when u see me okay ?

Ouhhh , I Love you people .

and when attachment ends , it means holiday for me .

there , i promise to meet every single one of my friend .

and i owe FabianPanda a dinner with him , Haaaa :)

he has been asking me to accompany him for dinner , yet im too busy .

so Fabian , my holiday okaygo ?

So tomorrow , after shift . meeting dearest Ayesha . and we're gonna cut our hair together :)

awwww , i miss her . she ends at 3 also . meeting her at starbucks northpoint .

and then go cut my hair and her hair .

wooohhhoooooo , talking about hair's.

this holiday , im really dying my hair dark brown and hilighting golden blonde colour .

yeaheh , i cant wait for this end of year holiday :)

this year , time flys fast huh ?

i mean , fasting month is coming . ouhh goshhhh .

which is on the august , and then 1st day of rayer falls on my birthday :)

awww , so gerek !

so cant wait for rayer :)

okay now ,

Im watching shrek at this moment , ohhhmyyyyy :)

so Love Life has been lately , I mean Bhy has been wonderful .

we got fight , But just a small one .

But now , everything is going on fine now . How i miss him now .

even though we just met just now , still i miss bhy alot .

okay now, bhy u know i love you right ? and no matter how hurt u make me , it will heal in just by seeing your face :)

okay dah bhy , I Love you bhy .

U know thats true .

Haha :)
still , wawanabilah will always be in my heart :)

Okay dah dah , bhy thanks for everything you have done for me kay bhy ?

Oooooohhhhhhhh , i love you !

Okay dah bhy .

Syggg you sungguh !

*loves*

the past .

2010-05-10T20:11:00.002+08:00

' This lonely road is becoming my new home '

Things change nowadays . Ouh well .

To write it out here is what i want to do , i guess i just miss my old times .

when sec4 was still what im living .

when northland sec was still where my feet is walking and living footprints behind .

when , walking home with teera and fee was all i ever did after school .

u know , time flies so fast that u cant catch it to just hold it and look at it till u're satisfied with that moment .

it was 2009 back then , when i use to say time was so slow . But now .

its going to be half a year of 2010 , how fast is this world revolving and rotating , i dont know .

Its moving so fast that i cant even stop to think about a decision.

stop to think if its right or wrong , like .

I finally feel like i want the time to just stop for a bit , just for this moment .

cos im tired of living everyday with the time being so fast .

suddenly , i feel empty in my heart .

where did i go to ? what pathway did i took ?

why im feeling empty so suddenly ?

this feeling is making me break down , i just miss when time was still 2009 .

but thats all in the past ,

but the truth is , i miss my friends , girlfriends , supergirls , fourawesomes , peeps & dudes .

the times i used to hang out till late night with them , hang out till like the world is in our hands , like nobody is watching .

i miss the fun times i had with 4nc , hanis , bo , maryjane , zakiyyah , arina , syaza .

all the fun times , in class, canteen . toilet .

now , everyone seems so busy .

and i miss meeting kama after school and lepak till 6plus .

i just miss the moments with them all , y'know .

i miss the fun times i had during countdown .

the every now and then meet up i had with supergirls , the hanging out to town kind of things .

Starbucks with Fee ,

Movie with Eqa & murnie .

ouhhh , the memories sudden flasback into my mind .

okay then , till here .

But whatever it is , I miss being me .

Life has been okay , Nursing have been Rocking .

and goodbye ward 75 and hello to ward 53c .

So yeah , afternoon shift tomorrow .

so taking a rest now , with some kinder beuno white in my mouth .

okaydah bye !

XOXO ,

amyynabilah .

time shows 830pm ,

3hours 3ominutes more till the clock strikes 12 midnight ,

and tomorrow is my 8months annivesary with bhy .

I love u bhy .

Ur faithfulness and Love is all im asking for :)

lady gaga?

2010-05-09T00:02:00.002+08:00

LADY GAGA AMPUTATED HER LEG ?!!???!!!???

okay first of all , i dont give a believe in that , who in world would go amputating their leg ?

furthermore , for fashion ?

sickdickbrains will do that , well if she really did it . she's one i guess . not trying to criticize or what , but why would she do it ? i mean, who will follow ?

gosh ! i mean , hello . people without legs are praying hard they had legs , and there she goes easily cutting her leg off ? i mean , i dont believe it luh .

if its true , why not show it to the whole world by performing live concert everywhere with her with no leg , i mean . she's rich dude .

and one more thing , how can sumone that amputates their leg recover so fast ?

miracle ? ouh dude , i dont believe she can recover that fast .

100% all this are rumours , and the pictures ?

well , the world is a modern place now .

they can just photoshop it .

i mean , hah . attention is all she wants , im not hating her . but seriously , dont try so hard till all this rumours spreads .

i mean , u're just putting a bad name to urself ,

not all people in this world thinks its cool , u see .

sum thinks that she's crazy , that just put her name down .

ouh my god , i mean .

if shes crazy , i understand .

but amputating ur leg , is way to crazy dude .

like whoa , i wont do it even if u're gonna give the whole world into my hands .

hahah , okay this is crazy man .

Okay stop it .

This is just a random post .

Okay dah bye !

next will be a proper post , yes promise .

random sungguh

2010-05-02T13:55:00.003+08:00

woke up and thought i tried .

wont matter anyway .

cos they say , Life is full of challenges .

U know its possible .

this lonely road is becoming my new home .

' Live.Laugh .Love.Life. '

Cos , Im in love with this boy which is mine .

Cos , he makes me smile on the inside .

Cos , he gave his all for me to hold on tight .

Bhy , u tau i syg u .

Promise that u wont leave me kay ?

I pms jugak bhy .

Okay dah bye!

and i rindu u bhy .

I LOVE MY ONE & ONLY BBY SNORE .

WAWANABILAH ; 110909

random by bhy .

2010-04-30T18:30:00.004+08:00

' Love '

Okay , Blog ku mcm dah rusty gitu ,

okaygo .

today is friday , haa everyone knows that .

Well , attachment has been great , fine oii .

but super tiring , backbone leh pecah bro .

Biasa Bro ! *ssmiles*

people there are friendly , ouhhh like who cares .

actually , i ahve nothing to post about .

Life has been great ,

Love Has been Awesome .

Okay currently at yishun library with Bhy .

Muhahaha , okay sumpah empty brain .

and yes , I Love bhy .

Okaygo !

nk tau bender ? bhy aku kental , tak tau update kan my blog . sedih .

but , still i love him no matter how kental he is . Kental uh bhy .

( his just beside me ) , haaaa :)

'Bhy , i nk double cheeseburger blh ?"

(baik , dier step tido biler aku type nie . )

Thanks ehy bhy , syg you uh !

okay dah .

okay , lapar giler . Hhaha .

I think im fat !

i think Im fat !

I think Im fat !

i think im fat !

okay but still im hungry , nk mkn . abhey ?

hahahah .

okay this post is super random , dont watse ur time reading it .

sumpah . Muahahaha .

tomorrow working , yessssaaaahhhhhh !

okay dah dah , im done blogging .

Update soon kayyyy.

bye .

12moredays to 8months ,i nak double cheeseburger . NOW!

(he just say he tak bwk duit , tak tau blang siang2 !)

hahahah :)

okay dah .

bye , nk gi macdonald uhk . mkn .

dah bye .

Bhy ckp bye .

false .

2010-04-25T19:21:00.007+08:00

I used to be the one holding strong even in the worse state of life .

i used to laugh it out even in the serious state of life .

I used to scream & shout my problems out no matter , happy or sad .

I used to be me .

' Its working '

i used to be me , i used to be me . I used to be me . I used to be me . I used to be me .

now , i notice i dont express myself that well anymore .

i dont tell people my problems . I dont scream or shout my problems anymore .

i dont laugh that much towards my problems , i tend to tear easily even at the littlest thing .

i dont take jokes easily anymore , i dont put a smile on my face that much .

i dont talk much to people anymore , i tend to keep quiet most of the times .

i dont hang out that much anymore .

i dont talk like i used to .

im not strong anymore , i may look at the outside .

but inside , i drown my tears inside .

at this point of time , i really want teera & fee right at my side .

giving me all the support , i miss them so much .

i miss the fun & sorrowness i shared with them .

the problems we shared with each other , i miss all that .

them , they are always there and never fail to give me the support.

i feel like crying now , i called fee and said im not strong like i used to be .

im not the amalia i used to be ,

i can feel the change in me ,im not me anymore .

so yeah ,

im scared to live now .

*sighs*

sumone please tell me whats happening to me .

i miss me , i miss me .

Bhy has been totally caring . i swear .

I love u luh bhy .

No matter what happens , I will still love u till forever ,

i will keep my pms , till whenever .

okay bhy? sygg u luh jugak .

okay dah , syg bby snore i

Te Amo .

im not in the mood now , bye .